Life's Playlist

Of course this gets switched up from time to time, but the good ones stay forever.
In no particular order:

"Calm Down Baby" Mac Lethal (My everyday Anthem)

"Sucks to be You"- Murs (Gets me through a Bad day)

"Tire Swing"-Kimya Dawson (I dig it)

"Give Me Love" Grayskul (good beat, great lyrics)

"You Make Me Feel Like A Whore"-Everclear (Self Explanatory)

"Dig Up Her Bones" the misfits (I can't get there on my own)

"Jimmy" 1208 (Definition of me)

"1234 1234" Streetlight Manifesto (I'm a wet cigarette)

"Smart Went Crazy" Atmosphere

"modern Man's Hustle" Atmosphere (let's me know that I gotta take care of me)

"Don't Ever Fuckin Question That" Atmosphere (It's just how I am)

"Pipebomb on landsdowne" Dropkick Murphys (Makes me chuckle)

"Follow you into the dark" Deathcab (I dunno, but it gets me)

Yesterday" Atmosphere
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFakOHRED_w
"Guarantees" Atmosphere

"True Crime" Ramallah

"Girl" El Pus

"reflections" Atmosphere (GOD YES!)

"Sore Losers" Bigwig (listen to it now)

"Alone in New Jersey" Bigwig

"You may be Right" Billy Joel

"Dune Buggy" P.U.S.A.

"never been in Love" Talib Kweli

"Rocky Road to Dublin" Dropkick Murphys (My life lately)

"Midnight Thoughts" Madcap ( get it)

"Days of the BK's" El Pus ( just a nice throwback memory)

"Broke" Whole Wheat Bread

"Old Man Samson" Whole Wheat Bread (My current future)

"Painting" Atmosphere ( no paint covers these stains)

"Day in the Life" Ramallah

"Full of Love" Ramallah (Sarcasm at it's finest)

"Broken Wings" Sage Francis (I want a woman like this)

"Handlebars" Flobots (truth)

"Paper Planes" M.I.A. (The beat sets me off)

"100 proof" 88fingers louie

Theres more and updates to come...but you get the idea. Look up whats not linked its all damned good and covers a variety of genres


Pee sleazy

I forgot

How big of a shithole my home town is...its not that its a shithole so much as the unemployment rate affects a society. my neighbor mows the grass for the local corner store for credit so he can buy smokes. now mind you this guy has worked hard for his little part. He OWNS a very smal plot of land and a beat on trailer, he's married(I'm pretty sure) and has like 5 kids. He just got hurt at work a few years ago and now does odd jobs around a poverty stricken community. Most of the people in my town are alcoholics or junkies. most do shoddy construction work for a friend when they need cash otherwise they're content not contributing to society. It just makes me sick.

it's a motherfucker

this is not like me at all

I dunno what it is. I never have a problem talking to people. but there is this one girl, I seriously cannot talk to her. I don't know why. It blows my mind. maybe I just don't know if we have any common ground, but I can't get the guts to really say more than "hi". maybe I just need some social lubricant. mmmmmm honey weiss.

I had something show me that the bottom of the bottle is not the place to live my life. This thing was one of the most glorious amounts of time in my life. It showed me compassion, different views on life, care, and above all love. That time in my life has past. It past a long time ago. slowly I've seen myself becoming more fed up with society, angrier at people, more willing to start a revolution of society, but above all I've seen myself closing myself off from everyone. Very few people know who I am. I realized this after some friends answered some questions about me. the main thing people know is that I smoke like a chimney and I drink more than anyone they have ever met. these things may be true. but have you ever wondered why? why do I do these things? have you ever asked yourself that? Sure everyone I know enjoys when I'm around; if anything I'm a damn good story teller and a crazy son of a bitch. but why?

One of you have described me as a Great White Shark stuck in a fish tank. sometimes I feel that way, I mean, people don't view me as very modest but those that know me...they know I'm one of the most insecure people ever. I'm socially retarded unless I'm properly greased with enough social lubricant. I have mental explosions of ideas, but I can't convey them. Most tell me that my ideas are retarded. If I want to build something huge and awe inspiring shutup and let me do it. if you're jealous of it, shut the fuck up and give me a hand and bask in the glory of it. In the past 6 months two people have told me they are concerned about my drinking. because they know as well as me that when I drink I like to find adventure. The more I drink the larger the adventure becomes. I don't know what I'm saying. but I do know that very few of you know my core, I'm sorry I shut doors and hide them, but once you find them they are quite easy to open.


I'm an open book, please figure out which chapter to turn to.

Green bay...yhea

wow...my family is the biggest collective group of assholes I have ever met. Well I guess I was overexcited on friday. I didn't eat well, I basically ate freezer food in the hotel. I got completely bombed on saturday, starting around 11:30am. Its socially acceptable to start drinking in green bay at that time. and the whole time my family just bitched and tried to loop me into fucked up drama. yhea fuck that. I'm just happy I'm back where I belong, now I just gotta deal with work.

travel

I'm such an addict for travel. I don't care the reason. I love going new places. yet, lately I have realized I hate getting there. I love the start of a trip...usually; not like today when two stupid asses in the backseat first of all weren't on time when I had a flight to catch, couldn't quit being ignorant bastards when in a drivethru, and constantly bitched until they fell asleep even though we had only been in the car for an hour!!!! ok wtf seriously nevermind. but shit like that makes me hate trips, also just waiting to get there bugs me. I love flying, I hate being on the worlds smallest plane where normal sized people are overflowing in the seats. first leg was bad. I'm just sittin in cleveland, waitin to get on my next plane. my total flight time between two flights is shorter than my layover, wow. I'm just happy to get out of my normal environment. I get to goto the land of cheese, green bay wisconsin. I seriously love going there to see my family. My uncle pete is there also and I haven't seen him in a minute...actually I haven't seen this side of my family in quite some time. I'm pretty stoked. I get to see my cousins and all these crazy distant relative who remember me when I was "this big". But I'm gonna eat damned good and I'm gonna chill. well I gotta check on my flight status and get some food to eat since I haven't eaten today.

Rockin my face off

The past few weeks have been insane. I've been observing in a classroom setting. Chillin with all these little kids. At first, I wanted to smack all of there parents. but then I got to know these kids, its funny how little kids can show you to appreciate the little things in life. they show appreciation, care, and honesty. I mean yhea they lied to get out of trouble. but you knew where you stood with them. damn I wish I was back in elementary school.

Also on top of doing that I had to catch up on the past five or six weeks of observation papers. I'm just getting everything back together, schoolwise. but catchin up on these papers has been leading me to sleepless nights of typing and researching which run right into work and class. with a brain in that state, and random study breaks you start to think some crazy shit. I'm pretty sure of what I want and just about everything I've done this quarter is not it. I really don't have a connection with anyone here, thats fine, I have a connection with my booze and when I need to talk, its there to listen.

Other than that, I just haven't had time to write anything for my own personal benefit. I mean I have to be ready to get outta this dorm by friday since I leave for green bay, wi. I'll be back in town on monday. just one final on tuesday night. and then I'm working non stop.

But I do get to move into my apartment on the 20th(woot). but the 14th-20th is homeless couch crashing, so if anyone has a free couch let me know. I'll hit it up for a nite or two.