Blast from the past

The other day she called me up, AJ. She told me that she had broken up with her significant other. She was in tears that were easily heard over the phone. After comforting her for a moment she asked me how my personal love life was, and I told her I'd recently started seeing someone. almost instantaneously the tears and sobbing were gone from her voice. As if this call was meant to tell me she wants me back. Yes I love this girl dearly, she's still one of my best friends. yet she strung me along and I followed because I wanted her back so badly. She fucked up my head and she knows this. Every friend of mine who knew her that I've spoken with has advised me not to go back, even my own mother who has known this girl for years advised against it. I didn't want the advice I just needed to talk to someone. I had already made my decision months prior. AJ may have realized that she fucked up, but I'm 98% sure I've moved on. Its sad, because I hate crushing peoples hopes. but I can't please everyone equally. This phone call did fuck up my head though, she switched teams after me, and completely changed. maybe she needed time to find herself(which was her reason for the breakup, along with my "quirks"). But still its fucked up. and now she will randomly call/text me to see how I'm doing, or tell me I was in her dream the nite prior, I don't ask details but I know what it meant. I guess what I've learned is that Shit happens and people change. Fuck it, live life, bleed slow.

Huzzah for making connections

So I was bartending for a bunch of teachers today. one of them asked me what I was majoring in and I told them education. Just about all of them stopped and shot the shit tryin to find out why I wanted to teach, what I want to teach, et cetera. Well one of the women offered me a spot for class observations and possible student teaching. The catch is that its an alternative school for kids who are felons. Kids that don't believe in themselves. I seriously want to land a job in the innercity because low income schools need teahcers and I just want to connect with a student an affect there life positively somehow. THIS IS PERFECT. second of all it'd look badass on a resume. I'm fuckin stoked. I mean it seriously brightened up the past few weeks since its been kinda hit and miss with life lately.
Only drawback is the school is like 25 miles away from me...fuck it, I'm stoked...It should be crazy good for me. and I'll get to do what I want. work with people who need me and learn from them. It will be win/win for both of us. I'll teach these kids what they need taught scholastically and some life lessons while they show me the possibilities of what they can do. I can't fuckin wait.